Monday, November 22, 2010

LOVE

It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never finding the courage to let the person know how you feel.

Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we should know how to be grateful for that gift.

Love is when you take away the feeling, the passion, the romance-and you find out you still care for that person.

A sad thing about life is that when you meet someone who means a lot to you only to find out in the end that it was never bound to be and you just have to let go.

When one door of happiness closes, another opens but often we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.

The best kind of friend is the one you could sit on a porch, swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like that was the best conversation you've had.

Its' true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back! don't expect love in return, just wait for it to grow in their hearts but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours.

There are things you love to hear but you would never hear it from the person whom you would like to hear it from, but don't be deaf to hear it from the person who says it with his heart.

Never say goodbye when you still want to try, never give up when you still feel you can take it, never say you don't love that person anymore when you can't let go.

Love comes to those who still hope even though they've been disappointed, to those who still believe even though they've been betrayed, need to love those who still love even though they've been hurt before.

It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

Don't go for looks' it can deceive; don't go for wealth even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because only a smile makes a dark day seem bright. Hope you find that person.

There are moments in life when you really miss someone that you want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real! Hope you dream of that someone.

Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want in life.

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy and enough money to buy me gifts

Always put yourself in other's shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably does hurt the person, too.

A careless word may kindly strife; a cruel word may wreck a life; a timely word may level stress; a loving word may heal and bless.

The beginning of love is to let those we love be perfectly themselves, and not to twist them with our own image. Otherwise, we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them.

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched and those who have tried. For only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives.

Love starts with a smile, develops with a kiss and ends with a tear.

The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling.

Live your life so that when you die you're smiling and everyone around you is crying.


-cjrxf
"in memory of my love"

Sunday, November 21, 2010

into something in my mind


im so lonely.. so sad..a few day without someone who supposed to be around me all the time now gone without trace..


we had a big fight...blood get involve.. and the last word from her is "im boring with you"

thats a blow.. investment are cropped out, compnay bankrupt, total annihilation and supermassive destruction.. it really hurt my feeling, heart, soul and mind..

im facing it with a fake smile around the world..i miss her, but as a gentle man i should respect her notice. Yeah, i got the memo.. this time i dont know if im taking a right step or not, to not nagging her, chasing her like i used to do all the time..

i read and learn that to do a right thing is always fall in the wrong step, at times the wrong step is the right thing to do.. i cry, but not much like often i did.. but im sure im lost far far away down..

today i read something from her own brother in her fb wall...he said that she is submitted in the hospital and stay unconscious for 2 days already..

now this is really worried me up...i dont know what to do, as her parents and family sure already gathered around her by now.. i want to run and go get her, but the thing that stopping me is the respect i should give to her, the space that she need.. i just cant being selfish to dash around to show my face in front of them, especially her..

she said she already boring with me... and thats make me not to summon in front of her while she is in agony and ill.. even my heart want to... but i still holding my promise toward her not to jump in to her family union.. im soo terribly mess...

maybe this is the best time for her, to see that her family is gather around her as she cry to me a day before the last day, she said she mad and miss her mother which always rejected her and obey to her evil father.. im not in position to chose a side, but im sure i can be there to comfort her like i always did, but i think from now on my charm wont work on her anymore.. im just a useless boyfriend.. i cant giv happiness to anyone even how hard i tried.. im too straight, too much act, and too much ground to be standing..

hope by now, at least her father, or maybe her mother start to give more attention to her, save her life and her future.. i know at times the best thing to do for someone we love is leave them, and if they are meant to be with us, they will come back.. as we never know it was important untill we lost em..

but i dont have the guts, the strength like other people did, to dump and leave.. because i dont want she do be leading to a wrong path of life, to the deep of darkness...plus i dont want her to be all alone, because i know how it feel to be so alone..

she might say im not like her, yeah i know she are alone, i always there but she never approve my existant, sometimes i feel like im a burden to her...she dont want to be alone by word she just want her mother to be around her, that is the definition of not being alone in her heart..

but for me..im seek people to ensure i am not alone.. and the different between me and her, she got the charm, she is friendly till every body know her want to be her friend at least..but me.. im just a piece of human that no body cares to listen and to look at times... even i lost alot of friend, new friend, old friend...all gone.. she said im lucky, but i said she is the luckiest girl on earth.. she dont have bother to look, but i need to look and i already look harder for a long time..

maybe there is no one in the world would understand me.. yeah my parents love me.. they care about me much more nowdays, not like how they used to be.. but that is different, that is biologically love..

i get less and lesser message day by day...no one will text me, private message me, comment me, contact me in any way at all.. i dont get the center of attraction.. i hope someone would understand, im hunger to be in social community.. to be human, to have people around, to have love.. like how i always concern to do for people..

now i dont know if she really sick or not, but i have to believe the news i got from her brother is true.. if it is.. please god hear to me once more, please safe her, give her the happiness she seek for, if it need something to sacrifice for it, take anything from me, i trade it all, even if i have to lose her, not to see her again, i will take the contract, just want her to feel the happiness, just want her to have her smile back, her days, and her rationality. She deserve every the best she should like other human did. I dont mind if she want to blame me for all, i would understand, she is not me, given a larger mind to think and brain with soul in the heart. My judgement maybe great but at times it would lost, as part of my imperfect. If you hear me god, please let her live the life she want, she being sad for long time already. Let me know if i can do anything to safe her and bring her the light of heaven. Because this is not what i want for her, i want her to happy and have the smile always, and success in her career and meet a greater man than me, to form a happily family of her own.

i want to see her, maybe for the last time, even from far away, because i know, she is always in my heart, and i will never forget how she makes me happy all the time.. maybe its part of circle of life where at times we had fight, but i never blame you, neither of her at all..

but if i dont have the chance to meet her at all after this.. please god, make my pray and wish come true for her.. and please put me in her mind for lesson to learned, even i will look like the baddest guy on earth. Im helpless.

for my lovely ibu.. i am really really love you, i write this while i cry, while i think im super matured.. with heart of love, i hope this is the right thing to do.. i just want you to be happy.. and this is my living at the movies.. im glad youre starring in this movie of mine. I love you, always and forever, if we have chance to meet, you always owned my lip to kiss.. mwahh..

Saturday, November 20, 2010

sadness


today im so sad... the very sadness of my life... i dont know how to describe it with word.. but what can i really say is.. im felling so lost.. confuse and shame upon me.. im so embarrass with my own self.

hope some one could understand. that im hunger of true love.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

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