Event horizon

I no longer have the patience for certain things, not because I’ve become arrogant, but simply because I reached a point in my life where I do not want to waste more time with what displeases me or hurts me. I have no patience for cynicism, excessive criticism and demands of any nature.

I lost the will to please those who do not like me, to love those who do not love me and to smile at those who do not want to smile at me. I no longer spend a single minute on those who lie or want to manipulate. I decided not to coexist anymore with pretence, hypocrisy, dishonesty and cheap praise.

I do not tolerate selective erudition nor academic arrogance. I do not adjust either to popular gossiping. I hate conflict and comparisons. I believe in a world of opposites and that’s why I avoid people with rigid and inflexible personalities.

In friendship, I dislike the lack of loyalty and betrayal. I do not get along with those who do not know how to give a compliment or a word of encouragement.

Exaggerations bore me and I have difficulty accepting those who do not like animals.

And on top of everything I have no patience for anyone who does not deserve my patience.

We Don't Talk Anymore

Cause even after all this time I still wonder why I can't move on just the way you did so easily. Every now and then I think you might want me to come show up at your door but I'm just too afraid that I'll be wrong.

But there is one thing that I can not lie, that I miss you so badly. 

How I wish things could go differently.

yyg.

Sunday

I just notice that I lost my safe space. The place that I always speak out my truest feeling. Where I believe no one will ever notice or read about it. Guess I lost the last trail of our photo as well. The photo that I always login at night and look at it before I go to sleep. To remind me how beautiful my life is before.

I am speechless...

I don't know if I want to cry..

It just I lost my will at anything..


Me and my endless begging, naivety and faith.

This could happen to me. Losing you.

One day, you'll remember the man who loved you so much that he forgot to love himself. You'll remember him when you wake up, when you eat, when you're about to sleep. He will be your greatest nightmare. You will be the one crying, and he will be the one happy with someone else.

One day, you'll regret losing him. You lost the man who did everything for you. You lost the man who has always there for you when no one else is. You lost him because of your ego. You lost the man who stayed by yourself even if you threw harsh words to him. You lost the man who tried to understand you when he needed you and you were not there.

One day, you'll realize that he was the one for you. The man who stood by your side even if you don't appreciate him. The man you choose to let go because you're full of pride. One day, you'll realize that the man you screwed up and left for another man, was the man who kept fighting and defending you when he hears gossips about you.

One day, you'll see him happy and contented with the life he has when you left him. He will thank you for letting him go and for making him realize he is worth of something so much better, that there is someone out there who is willing to do everything for him. He will look into your eyes with no feelings for you at all.

One day, when you see him, you will feel like you've been stabbed in your heart a million times for giving up on him. And when that day comes, no matter what you do, no matter what you say to him, it will not make sense because he was already done spending days of his life trying to make you love him as he loved you... but you didn't.