Happiness is a myth?

does somebody really know what is it a happiness?
does it can be seen?
the existence which can be mean chaotic sometime,
the way it come really transparent,
but when its time to let it go, its too bold to notice it,
when to think back, happiness is just a myth,
which u know how it sound,how it is pictured it self,
but when it was here,we cant notice it was here,
but we feel comfortable and happy, we do smile,
suddenly *poof* like a magic its gone,
with one close eye its been draw on our face,
"I'm not happy, I'm all alone"
you, yes you,when we make it right,
like having things good,sex,talk,hot and wet,
but at the end..i just know even u didn't say anything,

"I'm sorry"
why we do divorce? why we break up?
isn't the happiness was there?

"I'm not sure"
that's all the unappreciated answer from whom wanna leave,
sometimes you cant just understand the tired of trying again,
come and go,its hard,when I'm the one appreciate, but you're not,
do you think it was fun?

"yeah too much fun"
I'm not asking about what we have done,
and you don't need to act like you appreciate it,
you walk away without a reason,it is clear,
but somehow today,i do see that happiness is a myth,
like any other myth,we know how it works,
to confirm it really exist or not,we look for it,
like believing it was true from discovery channel,
but i discovered it my self with a girl that i love,
happiness is only there when we meet,
then the myth was written in our history,
which people cant found it, where it is the happiness,
our story is the best way to tell and elaborate,
the truth meaning of happiness,and it is your own myth,
one day for our children..me and my girl never give up to each other,
and when love is said, it meant to be, i love u so much,
way too much,never want to leave, if that is the myth I'm looking for..

..

I wish....

i wish i can write,
so i can throw what inside,
so i can read it all over again,
to remind me how much i got hurt than happy,

i wish i can read,
so i can learn a lot of language,
when he send i can read,
when she reply i can understand,

i wish i can sing,
so i can feel my own emotion,
when I'm happy I'm hyper,
and when I'm sad i just cry,

i wish i was rich,
so i wont be so struggling,
i can help community and family,
money not everything,
but everything is money,

i wish i trust my friends,
so i can do work lightly,
no argument no fight,
i say sorry and they will do the same to,

and lastly i wish i can make a wish,
because i have no place to lean on,
i just got time for work hard,
to satisfied all the things that never understand me..

Tomorrow Comes Today

"start from 15th November 2009 I could not see and hold her as she going far away for the moment so i wrote this to remind how it feels inside me"


i faced the mirror in mama's room,

drew a makeup in my place,

i was lost because i cross the line i shouldn't cross,

but how long can i wait for tomorrow?

and what if it's coming today, i was lost...

hey..how long it would take for tomorrow,

as if i see every day is sun and moon,

is it forgiveness that counts the day,

or happiness is like there is no tomorrow,

so tell me what if tomorrow comes today,

i was scared...please..

how long must i need to know about tomorrow,

or for you,

i was scared like its higher than a sky,

or when she goes,

as if tomorrow comes today,

will she be back ? will she not?

as today come tomorrow,

i will say please, please, please, please,

and tomorrow come today,
i still afraid if i couldn't see my dearness......

Cosmic Flower

Beautiful honorific epithet sunshine,

Melodious rhythm honorific epithet breeze,

Nothing beautiful as your look,

Nothing melodious as your voice,

It soft how breeze to cherish,

Melodious of bird singing,

Nothing is so soft as how u cherish,

Nothing melodious as your song,

The beautiful of yours be my inspiration,

The melodious of your voice entertaining me,

My light of my soul getting lighter,

When you promised me a faithful,

Even the road is hard,we always be together,

As long the sun still shine,

As long my heart still beating,

I will sacrifice all my heart and soul,

For my love to you my cosmic flower,

I always here in love with you,

even tomorrow isn't a day for me..