Why I dont cheat?

because what I need is within me first (happiness) and my wife allows me be me

MY WIFE

The woman I marry is great with kids and eventually plans on having them.

The woman I marry doesn’t have to cook like a professional chef, but she is comfortable in the kitchen and CHOOSES to cook.

The woman I marry is domesticated enough and understands that marriage is all about teamwork.

The woman I marry couldn’t care less who she’s with as long as she’s comfortable and not disrespected.

The woman I marry wants to have a career she enjoys.

so to whom it may be concern...

If your smile is a story, then this is it :)

This is how the story went

I met someone by accident

Who blew me away

And It was in the darkest of my days

When you took my sorrow

and you took my pain

And buried them away

I wish I could lay down beside you

When the day is done

And wake up to your face

against the morning sun

Because your smile keep making me

fall in love with you

first time and everytime

Listen

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete
Listen to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release
Oh, the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own all 'so please
Listen
ifeelsolala

"Who's Lovin' You"

Its a very long day... 1st November 2013.... its our first month anniversary, and also our first big fight, or as we would prefer as big bugged.... we have our first agree and disagree.. we show our dark color for the very first time... if anyone to be blame, is both of us, yeahhh we learned... that's the best part of it, we improved and our relationship gets matured.. at the end of the day, its her voice that i been missing, her smile..damn her smile always make me feel fall in love again and over again... she might not be the pretties girl in every eye of a guy, but she is my diamond.. the best of her is she's really really a good company.. a friend, a lover, and a teacher... Our first fight, that's quite big for me.. im scared...of losing her.. or changes that gonna put us apart, even little by little.. but not this fights.. because i knew, i could learn to live with it.. to learn to love unconditionally.. to stay together for thick and thin.. the most important is not giving up what loving me.. so now i wanna dedicated a song for her.. to say im sorry if in the fight suddenly i lose grip with my bitchy mouth and cutthroat words... the best part of it..you take it like a real women..you listen and so am i..we try to look it thru and fix it..tolerate it and give and take..thats made the best of us... i love you baby.. will always do.. i cant promise forever, but i like the idea to live one... this song accompany me for tonight as u are sleeping apart quite far a way from me...and i want to share it with you :) i feel so lala.

When I had you
I treated you bad
And wrong my dear
And girl since,
Since you been away
Dontcha know
I sit around
with my head hangin' down
And I wonder
Who's lovin you

I, I, I, I should have never ever
Ever made you cry
And girl since
Since you been gone
Dontcha know
I sit around
with my head hangin' down
And I wonder
Who's lovin you

Life without love
Is oh so lonely
I dont think
I dont think
I'm gonna make it
All my life
All my life, yeah
belongs to you only
Come on and take it girl
Come on and take it!
Because,
All I can do
All I can do
Since you been gone is cry
And you, oooh
Dontcha know I
Sit around
With my head hangin down
And I wonder
Who's lovin' you
(Who's lovin you)
Who's lovin you...

Rumor Mill

Here we go again,
It’s like you’re calling all the shots before I shoot them and I hate that.
Every time I turn my back I wonder what you’ll say to make me sound like someone different.

And I don’t ever wanna know what it feels like to be a shadow of myself and I don’t ever wanna come back down from this feeling.

And I don’t think you wanna see what’s underneath the made up version of me.

We’ve been picking up the pieces
Leaving all the dust behind.
Sick of all the pressure , we’re just wasting time.

I lost the strength to keep my grip on the reality that everything from day to day is fading from my memory but I’ll never let this grow out of my control and watch our steps so we don’t fall into this hole we’ve dug alone

I measure life in minutes and every second of it make me wanting you more.

If to love you is wrong, then I sustain my mistake so I can get to you. Like in The Notebook, thick and thin is our heaven ground. I wish I could be outside of your window and holding boombox playing our songs.

Way beyond all this word, I believe that you know me more than this. 

Like love, it is true.
Like us, it's wonderful.

ifeelsolala