Saturday, December 18, 2010

I Miss My Bubu So Much

You didnt know what you were looking for
till you heard the voices in your ear.

Hey, its me again.
Plain, you see again.
Please, can I see you every day?
Im a fool again.
I fell in love with you again.
Please, can I see you every day?

Words dont come out right.
I tried to say it, oh, so right.
I hope you understand my meaning.
Hey, its me again.
Im so in love with you again.
Please, can I see you every day?

I remember every word you said.
I remember voices in my head.
I remember every word you said.

Your voices.
Cool voices.
Warm voices.
But its just what I needed for.
It was just what I needed to.
Just what I needed to, just what I needed to,
Just what I needed.

You didnt know what you were looking for
till you heard the voices in your ear.

Friday, December 17, 2010

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Monday, November 22, 2010


It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never finding the courage to let the person know how you feel.

Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we should know how to be grateful for that gift.

Love is when you take away the feeling, the passion, the romance-and you find out you still care for that person.

A sad thing about life is that when you meet someone who means a lot to you only to find out in the end that it was never bound to be and you just have to let go.

When one door of happiness closes, another opens but often we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.

The best kind of friend is the one you could sit on a porch, swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like that was the best conversation you've had.

Its' true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back! don't expect love in return, just wait for it to grow in their hearts but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours.

There are things you love to hear but you would never hear it from the person whom you would like to hear it from, but don't be deaf to hear it from the person who says it with his heart.

Never say goodbye when you still want to try, never give up when you still feel you can take it, never say you don't love that person anymore when you can't let go.

Love comes to those who still hope even though they've been disappointed, to those who still believe even though they've been betrayed, need to love those who still love even though they've been hurt before.

It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

Don't go for looks' it can deceive; don't go for wealth even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because only a smile makes a dark day seem bright. Hope you find that person.

There are moments in life when you really miss someone that you want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real! Hope you dream of that someone.

Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want in life.

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy and enough money to buy me gifts

Always put yourself in other's shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably does hurt the person, too.

A careless word may kindly strife; a cruel word may wreck a life; a timely word may level stress; a loving word may heal and bless.

The beginning of love is to let those we love be perfectly themselves, and not to twist them with our own image. Otherwise, we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them.

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched and those who have tried. For only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives.

Love starts with a smile, develops with a kiss and ends with a tear.

The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling.

Live your life so that when you die you're smiling and everyone around you is crying.

"in memory of my love"

Sunday, November 21, 2010

into something in my mind

im so lonely.. so sad..a few day without someone who supposed to be around me all the time now gone without trace..

we had a big fight...blood get involve.. and the last word from her is "im boring with you"

thats a blow.. investment are cropped out, compnay bankrupt, total annihilation and supermassive destruction.. it really hurt my feeling, heart, soul and mind..

im facing it with a fake smile around the world..i miss her, but as a gentle man i should respect her notice. Yeah, i got the memo.. this time i dont know if im taking a right step or not, to not nagging her, chasing her like i used to do all the time..

i read and learn that to do a right thing is always fall in the wrong step, at times the wrong step is the right thing to do.. i cry, but not much like often i did.. but im sure im lost far far away down..

today i read something from her own brother in her fb wall...he said that she is submitted in the hospital and stay unconscious for 2 days already..

now this is really worried me up...i dont know what to do, as her parents and family sure already gathered around her by now.. i want to run and go get her, but the thing that stopping me is the respect i should give to her, the space that she need.. i just cant being selfish to dash around to show my face in front of them, especially her..

she said she already boring with me... and thats make me not to summon in front of her while she is in agony and ill.. even my heart want to... but i still holding my promise toward her not to jump in to her family union.. im soo terribly mess...

maybe this is the best time for her, to see that her family is gather around her as she cry to me a day before the last day, she said she mad and miss her mother which always rejected her and obey to her evil father.. im not in position to chose a side, but im sure i can be there to comfort her like i always did, but i think from now on my charm wont work on her anymore.. im just a useless boyfriend.. i cant giv happiness to anyone even how hard i tried.. im too straight, too much act, and too much ground to be standing..

hope by now, at least her father, or maybe her mother start to give more attention to her, save her life and her future.. i know at times the best thing to do for someone we love is leave them, and if they are meant to be with us, they will come back.. as we never know it was important untill we lost em..

but i dont have the guts, the strength like other people did, to dump and leave.. because i dont want she do be leading to a wrong path of life, to the deep of i dont want her to be all alone, because i know how it feel to be so alone..

she might say im not like her, yeah i know she are alone, i always there but she never approve my existant, sometimes i feel like im a burden to her...she dont want to be alone by word she just want her mother to be around her, that is the definition of not being alone in her heart..

but for seek people to ensure i am not alone.. and the different between me and her, she got the charm, she is friendly till every body know her want to be her friend at least..but me.. im just a piece of human that no body cares to listen and to look at times... even i lost alot of friend, new friend, old friend...all gone.. she said im lucky, but i said she is the luckiest girl on earth.. she dont have bother to look, but i need to look and i already look harder for a long time..

maybe there is no one in the world would understand me.. yeah my parents love me.. they care about me much more nowdays, not like how they used to be.. but that is different, that is biologically love..

i get less and lesser message day by one will text me, private message me, comment me, contact me in any way at all.. i dont get the center of attraction.. i hope someone would understand, im hunger to be in social community.. to be human, to have people around, to have love.. like how i always concern to do for people..

now i dont know if she really sick or not, but i have to believe the news i got from her brother is true.. if it is.. please god hear to me once more, please safe her, give her the happiness she seek for, if it need something to sacrifice for it, take anything from me, i trade it all, even if i have to lose her, not to see her again, i will take the contract, just want her to feel the happiness, just want her to have her smile back, her days, and her rationality. She deserve every the best she should like other human did. I dont mind if she want to blame me for all, i would understand, she is not me, given a larger mind to think and brain with soul in the heart. My judgement maybe great but at times it would lost, as part of my imperfect. If you hear me god, please let her live the life she want, she being sad for long time already. Let me know if i can do anything to safe her and bring her the light of heaven. Because this is not what i want for her, i want her to happy and have the smile always, and success in her career and meet a greater man than me, to form a happily family of her own.

i want to see her, maybe for the last time, even from far away, because i know, she is always in my heart, and i will never forget how she makes me happy all the time.. maybe its part of circle of life where at times we had fight, but i never blame you, neither of her at all..

but if i dont have the chance to meet her at all after this.. please god, make my pray and wish come true for her.. and please put me in her mind for lesson to learned, even i will look like the baddest guy on earth. Im helpless.

for my lovely ibu.. i am really really love you, i write this while i cry, while i think im super matured.. with heart of love, i hope this is the right thing to do.. i just want you to be happy.. and this is my living at the movies.. im glad youre starring in this movie of mine. I love you, always and forever, if we have chance to meet, you always owned my lip to kiss.. mwahh..

Saturday, November 20, 2010


today im so sad... the very sadness of my life... i dont know how to describe it with word.. but what can i really say is.. im felling so lost.. confuse and shame upon me.. im so embarrass with my own self.

hope some one could understand. that im hunger of true love.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Monday, October 25, 2010


RXF on magazine :D yeahh~!!!

Yeah!! First mag review in Yezz Magazine November issue 2010 :)

***to read more about the article please purchase the magazine only RM4.90 and automatically u already support the local scene and local industries :) cheers to malaysia band and music :D

Thanks you soo much to:

Yezz Magazine it self for such a great fantastic exposure

Yezz Magazine reader especially the one to check out the link given in the article

Aqilah Mior the writer ;)

Macxy Green the photgrapher

Zaffan the make up artist as the biggest platform for indie musician in malaysia to evolve

and to all RXF fans and friends for supporting us and keep on listening to our song :)

really really wanna give to all of you guys a big hugs from the group of big fat man :D yeahh~!!

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Ich Liebe Dich

to love my bubu always and forever, but i have to say im sorry as if im not the right man for you.. but i never cant let u go..sorry this is my ego that i cant tell u in sms or face to times i think i want u to come and bring me the run and catch me just to say u love me..

so hope this is the best key to make u open your heart and do it quick before we lose each other. I cant live with that...

Saturday, September 25, 2010


Hey guys.. seems like in our myspace page not allowed fans or visitor to download our song so I put up here the link to our media fire for the current moment..

This is our very first Demo entitled The Ratchet.. exclusive just for free download.

Track Listing:

01 - Moon Runners..

02 - No Where..

03 - Since You..

04 - Hate Is The Strong Word....

Please download and spread the music around :) still looking for bright future with it....

Keep supporting our own Malaysia Local Scene and Support the unknowns...

Download Link :

Mediafire - Romance Not In Fashion : The Ratchet DEMO

Support Our Band, Local act.

Friday, September 24, 2010

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Monday, September 20, 2010

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Monday, August 23, 2010

I Cry on my own shoulder this time..alone

I have seen peace. I have seen pain,
Resting on the shoulders of your name.
Do you see the truth through all their lies?
Do you see the world through troubled eyes?
And if you want to talk about it anymore,
Lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.

I have seen birth. I have seen death.
Lived to see a lover's final breath.
Do you see my guilt? Should I feel a fright?
Is the fire of hesitation burning bright?
And if you want to talk about it once again,
On you I depend. I'll cry on your shoulder.
You're a friend.

You and I have lived through many things.
I'll hold on to your heart.
I wouldn't cry for anything,
But don't go tearing your life apart.

I have seen fear. I have seen faith.
Seen the look of anger on your face.
And if you want to talk about what will be,
Come and sit with me, and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.
And if you want to talk about it anymore,
Lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder,
Once again.
Cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.

Come back to me baby..amiera

why do you act like you don't care
Like all this love between us isn't there
I know that you're upset
I know I did you wrong
I know that you want me to pay for all the pain I've caused
But in the end it all comes down to just one thing,
It's you and me

Saturday, August 14, 2010

These Walls

Everything seemed okay when I started out the other day Then the rain came pouring down And now I'm drowning in my fears And as I watch the setting sun I wonder if I'm the only one Cause everybody tries to put some love on the line And everybody feels a broken heart sometimes And even when I'm scared I have to try to fly Sometimes I fall But I've seen it done before I got to step outside these walls ...

1) I've got no master plan to help me out
2) Or make me stand up for
3) All the things that I really want, You had me to afraid to ask
4) And as I look ahead of me , Cry and pray for sanity

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

sustain echo


i dont know why this 4 element are always sustaining in my life and echo each time it happen.. i dont know what to do, what to say, what to live with...i just feel lost.. and all i feel is, no body here to save me.. even my love one

no body intent to do anything about my illness.. no body ever want to put a smile on my face..

when i say no body, i meant it no body at all

i should die than live the life

i dont want to be superman anymore..i just want to be save..

if any body listen or read this.. please do something about it.. or else, its gonna be too late.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Wednesday, June 9, 2010


I am going to draw a picture...
A picture with a twist...
I'll draw it with a razor blade..
I'll draw it on my wrist...
And with this twisted picture a fountain will appear
and with this bright red fountain all my problems disappear

Friday, June 4, 2010

Im soo lonely in the dark of my own space

i cry alone in the dark
waiting for angel that will never wake up
cant sleep with anger in me
cant resist for the sadness while waiting

i think of running, but chose to do nothing
i think of shouting, but i end up silent
i fake the way live, and living in my own mind
i want to fall, but im already on the ground

to break, i am not in the position
to keep, position is sorrow
flew in the wind, but the wind never chills me
holding the tears, that foolishness

im stuck, im hurt, im all along what its mean
im a tragedy, accident, paused for no reason
stay awake for what i want, never get there
so i think of asylum, but never qualified

i hate, everything
cruelness of the world that ignore me
in dark i cant sleep, with vengeance of dicy
i decided not worth living this forgiveness

im soo lonely in the dark of my own space
die, please i invite you now..

Thursday, June 3, 2010

Our love could be forever

lately i've listening to Muse song taken out from up coming Twilight: Eclipse movie soundtrack Neutron Star Collision (Love Is Forever). I think im so much in love with that song.. so i got this using my baby SLR

Another part of my life

maybe not all of you would notice and know that im so active in for guitar and audio recording segment. Ya, you could catch me up with my interest there, also not forget :) so guys, another movie i been acting on :) /forum/index.php

Friday, May 28, 2010

Invincible (dedicated to my IBU)

Follow through
Make your dreams come true
Don't give up the fight
You will be all right
Cause there's no one like you
In the universe

Don't be afraid
What your mind conceals
You should make a stand
Stand up for what you believe
And tonight we can truly say
Together we're invincible

And during the struggle
They will pull us down
But please, please let's use this chance to
Turn things around
And tonight we can truly say
Together we're invincible

Do it on your own
Makes no difference to me
What you leave behind
What you choose to be
and whatever they say
Your soul's unbreakable

And during the struggle
They will pull us down
But please, please let's use this chance to
Turn things around
And tonight we can truly say
Together we're invincible
Together we're invincible

And during the struggle
They will pull us down
Please, please let's use this chance to
Turn things around
And tonight we can truly say
Together we're invincible

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Offline MSG from her :)

If not for you, I wouldn’t know
What true love really meant.
I’d never feel this inner peace;
I couldn’t be content.

If not for you, I’d never have
The pleasures of romance.
I’d miss the bliss, the craziness,
Of love’s sweet, silly dance.

I have to feel your tender touch;
I have to hear your voice;
No other one could take your place;
You’re it; I have no choice.

If not for you, I’d be adrift;
I don’t know what I’d do;
I’d be searching for my other half,
Incomplete, if not for you.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Akta Hakcipta Selepas 23 Tahun

Akta Hakcipta Selepas 23 Tahun

AKTA Hakcipta telah diwartakan pada 1987. Ini bermakna usianya sudah 23 tahun. Tujuan akta ini bagi melindungi hak-hak para karyawan seni termasuklah dalam bidang-bidang seperti muzik, filem dan drama.

Selepas dua dekad, banyak perkembangan berlaku dengan drastik sesuai dengan arus pemodenan. Banyak perkara dalam akta itu yang memerlukan anjakan demi menjaga kepentingan pihak-pihak berkaitan.

Contohnya, soal royalti jualan album, siaran lagu di radio, televisyen (TV) serta persembahan artis di tempat-tempat terbuka. Semua itu boleh mendatangkan duit buat golongan penyanyi, komposer, pemuzik dan penulis lirik tanah air.

Sayangnya, selama 23 tahun, ramai penggiat seni yang belum mampu mengaut pendapatan lumayan daripada kerjaya mereka. Mereka secara tidak langsung terus ditindas dengan pelbagai cara sesuai dengan keadaan zaman.

Dulu cabaran bidang muzik adalah lanun-lanun cetak rompak. Sekarang ini cabarannya adalah muat turun lagu di Internet secara haram atau percuma.

Atas dasar itulah kerajaan harus mengkaji semula muat turun lagu secara percuma di Internet. Suruhanjaya Komunikasi dan Multimedia Malaysia (SKMM) yang mempunyai kaitan dalam pengisian perkhidmatan Internet harus dilibatkan sama dalam hal tersebut.

Paling menyedihkan apabila syarikat-syarikat telekomunikasi (telco) turut 'tumpang sekaki' menggunakan lagu-lagu dalam nada dering dengan kadar royalti yang kurang memihak kepada para pengkarya.

Lebih separuh daripada keuntungan penggunaan lagu itu diambil telco.

Sepatutnya, ada suatu pihak terutamanya kerajaan seperti Perbadanan Harta Intelek Malaysia di bawah Kementerian Perdagangan Dalam Negeri, Koperasi dan Kepenggunaan (KPDNKK) yang memantau keadaan itu.

Ramai karyawan muzik kita misalnya, yang tidak tahu secara tepat berapa kalikah lagu-lagu mereka digunakan dalam perkhidmatan yang disediakan oleh syarikat-syarikat telco? Perlu ada pihak termasuklah SKMM yang sepatutnya memantau perkembangan itu yang kini menjadi trend.

Syarikat-syarikat pengutip royalti seperti Badan Pelindung Hakcipta Karyawan Muzik Malaysia (MACP), Pelaku Persembahan Muzik (PPM) serta Pengutip Royalti Persembahan dan Hak Artis Sdn.Bhd. (Prism) juga harus dipantau dari semasa ke semasa.

Ramai yang memuji fungsi MACP dan PPM yang dikatakan tidak bertindan, tetapi ada pula pihak mencadangkan peranan Prism dikaji semula. Ia dikatakan mengulangi peranan PPM yang turut mengutip royalti karya-karya artis di tempat-tempat awam.

KPDNKK harus bertegas dalam hal ini, sama ada dalam menentukan harga siling buat bayaran royalti album atau persembahan di tempat-tempat terbuka. Kadarnya haruslah masuk akal dengan taraf hidup dan ekonomi sekarang ini.

Adalah tidak logik apabila royalti sebuah album 10 sen hingga RM1 dibayar kepada komposer, penulis lirik ataupun penyanyi. Kadar sekitar RM1 itu juga harus dikongsi dengan sekurang-kurangnya tiga pihak terbabit.

Itu dalam bidang muzik, manakala bidang filem dan drama turut menerima banyak keluhan terutamanya golongan penerbit. Mereka seolah-olah ditindas stesen-stesen TV swasta dalam soal hakcipta karya masing-masing.

Penerbit drama, telemovie atau filem misalnya, hanya menerima sekali bayaran atas pembelian karya-karya mereka. Sedangkan pihak stesen TV mengaut keuntungan berlipat kali ganda dengan menayangkannya berulang kali tanpa membayar royalti kepada para penerbitnya.

Mujurlah tidak lama lagi Akta Hakcipta 1987 akan dipinda. Banyak perkara dalam akta itu yang harus dikemaskinikan. Ia dijangka dibentangkan di Parlimen bulan depan.

Namun, sebelum usul itu dibentangkan di Parlimen, KPDNKK haruslah mengenal pasti perkara-perkara yang akan dipinda dalam akta tersebut dan ia dibawa kepada semua ahli dalam persatuan-persatuan artis di negara ini.

KPDNKK haruslah memanggil kesemua 11 persatuan artis yang bernaung di bawah Gabungan Persatuan Karyawan Filem Malaysia bagi mendapatkan persetujuan mereka.

Ia bagi memastikan pindaan akta itu difahami serta disokong semua pihak dan tidak meminggirkan sesiapa juga. Daripada golongan penerbit sehinggalah pembancuh air di lokasi penggambaran, mereka berhak mendapat manfaat daripada pindaan akta tersebut.

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