Wednesday, February 26, 2014

to my love bug lala




When a man loves a woman
Can't keep his mind on nothin' else
He'd trade the world
For a good thing he's found
If she is bad, he can't see it
She can do no wrong
Turn his back on his best friend
If he puts her down

When a man loves a woman
Spend his very last dime
Trying to hold on to what he needs
He'd give up all his comforts
And sleep out in the rain
If she said that's the way
It ought to be

When a man loves a woman
I give you everything I got (yeah)
Trying to hold on
To your precious love
Baby please don't treat me bad

When a man loves a woman
Deep down in his soul
She can bring him such misery
If she is playing him for a fool
He's the last one to know
Loving eyes can never see

Yes when a man loves a woman
I know exactly how he feels
'Cause baby, baby, baby
I am a man
When a man loves a woman

Sunday, February 16, 2014

pretending I'm a superman


So here I am doing everything I can
holding on to what I am , pretending I'm a superman
I'm trying to keep the ground on my feet
it seems the world's falling down around me

The nights are all long
I'm singing this song to try and make the answers more than maybe
And I'm so confused about what to do
sometimes I want to throw it all away

So here I am growing older all the time
looking older all the time and feeling younger in my mind
I'm trying to sleep
I lost count of the sheep
my mind is racing faster every minute

What could I do more
yeah I'm really not sure
I know I'm running circles but I can't quit

Controlling everything in site
I'm feeling weak
I don't feel right
you're telling me I have to change
telling me to act my age
but if all that I can do is just sit and watch time go
then I'll have to say good-bye life's too short to watch it fly

holding on to what I am
pretending I'm a superman

Have faith in me



Have faith in me
Cause there are things that I've seen I don't believe
So cling to what you know and never let go
You should know things aren't always what they seem

I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it
If you didn't have this chance then I never did
You'll always find me right there, again

I'm going crazy
So we'll pretend it's alright
and stay in for the night
Oh what a world
I'll keep you safe here with me
So please
 Have faith in me

Thursday, February 6, 2014

The Green Shirt

Damn it!!
Seriously!!
The more I sniff it...
And sleep with it...
Feel like she was here..
But cant have her...


I MISS YOU SO MUCH LA GILE!!!! 

why



you




do        this

to


ME 



?



ifeelsolala

I leave all the lights on

Guess things didn't go the way that I planned
I missed the days when you would understand

The way that I am
You have me feeling lonely and detached
Every time I'm moving forward
We take two steps back

I need to find the difference in how I feel and how I felt


I leave all the lights on
And maybe you'll find your way back home


I wish I could get back to the way things were
When we were young, having fun, so self assured
But now that's all a blur
I miss the way we always used to talk
Now we talk ourselves in circle till we forget why we fought


This gets me so down
Why can't we work it out? 

This makes me so down
I've been trying to see, if you were meant for me


I leave all the lights on, if you still cared I need to know.

LUCK

Ohhh luck, my biggest enemy.
I never believe in the concept of lucky
And yet I found my self lucky to where im standing now,
but not as much lucky as how in somebody else past.
Im always the kind of person who never get the 100 percent 
of how they used to give out in the past.
And that always make me feel like Im an experimental being.
Or reality for me, like I never meant to deserve it.

Trying, the only thing i never stop doing.
Its a lie if I never felt to give up.
I do, each of every second of my life.
But as much as I want to giving up.
I always felt that so much i could offer.
And that is the only thing I could feel good about my self,
be strong and always giving more.
Because I found it so unfair to let someone now
to suffer from my miserable past.
My baggage no need to be claim,
I dumped it somewhere I can see but could not reach,
So I can preserve so much room for better future.
And yet I could look back and learn to not submit the same mistake again.

Understanding, I'm clueless.
I don't even know if it just a metaphor for something,
or it just a made up constitution.
Because there is always a conflict between 
to be able to understand,
and to be understand.
Both way is a joke on me.
It make me confuse.

Life, typical drama, and yet I don't care.
All I know there is a
star
moon
cloud
rainbow
sky
and sun 
Then there is a small little corner in it
there is a prince and princess
Like how we used to say
"even we round the world in the opposite way, yet we found each other"
and I believe in that,
It is not luck, It is typical.
Yet it wonderful
But if life is just to remember all the bad things happen,
I should be allowed to chose the way I die,
and obviously the way not gonna let anyone to suffer.
 I drive my life to remember all the happiness
and reject to die before my eyes can see that 
we are happy with each other.
Thick and thin.

So you there who reading this
This is no competition statement
Not an argument to make.
This is how I love you.
To let you go into me.
And try to see how my head works.
But I can assure you,
I always do love you,
No matter how hard this road we taking,
I will be there, always.
To catch your smile fall out from the sky.
And let heaven be less happy now,
till the day I take you there.

And I never need luck to have you.
Because you deserve my effort 100 percent.
And in return, I hope you could do the same.
If not our journey to heaven not gonna be awesome.

Word could be really hurt.
But a smile of you could make it go away.
Simple as that.
That's how perfect you are in my eyes.

ifeelsolala.