Friday, November 20, 2009

When he walked those roads...


He never thought he could meet a girl who so into him, a girl who very charming on everything she does, when she smiled, when she laughed, when she is calling him with names... He could not ever think that he will be with her for eternity.

At first, he was so afraid if she just another girl who catches his heart but inside her, there is no space for him. He should not try to enter the door locked in there, but it is his heart inside that keep on telling himself  he should  just stay and be a patient thief if he wanted to steal her crystal heart. Afraid of getting hurt again and fail, he could be never loud out what he felt inside. His brain and his heart keeps on fighting for a wise decision. He felt like no man in him, felt like a chicken, felt like a coward that didn't wanna try again. Shadow of his past is over his conscious mind.

Later he realized that she builds up a little principle inside him where he'd carried along a while after, "If we love someone doesn't mean we should be together, and if we hate, no way being a part is an option". So he decided to stay and again with his broken wing, he promised to take care of her as far as he can without  her knowing that inside him, it is love encourage him.

However, the story goes short, all the love she saved for someone loving her is given to him at a very unexpected time. She kissed him. He paused on every second of that moment. It's like a slow motion and his heart beating fast. And with a smile she said to him "I will always be with you, taking care of you, together we walk now side by side, and please don't hurt me or break my heart". And that was the moment where she had to return to the castle for a short while. She asked him to wait for her return and ask him to take care of something that belongs to White force. She did also notice him about if she not return, "please don't encourage yourself  to look up for White, stay with the Black. Whatever  you think it is, just promise me that". He promised her even he didn't understand what that supposed to mean. He worried.

Here come the sun, he still holds the Black and wondering all the last moment, she said to him. Now the king has chosen him to guard his Majesty to the place of White. He was afraid when he has gone, she will be return, but it was an order to ensure that the Majesty is saved and return. He wants to refuse but how could he reject the responsible to keep the Kingdom hearts out of danger. Offer not been made but sword and shield are prepared to be worn.

He was given brief about his mission to the White. It's called China. In the library, he came to study about that place to ensure the journey was safe and not mistakenly direct. It's not really the place was calling " White". The White is a mission name for operation on winter seasons. He studies and studies until he read about Yin Yang. A beautiful symbol with white cover the black and black cover the white. He could not understand what the symbol stands for, but he was attracted with that symbol. He looks at the Black and trying to think deep about what she said but nothing hit the very little brain of his.


Now the journey had begun. He walks to the coolest desert of winter. He barely sees anything at the front because of heavy winter wind. While on foot, he smiles and misses her, remember back all the time they have spent with.

She not really happy to live in the castle, it is a different region out from the Kingdom where he lived. She's a student in arts and study in the Kingdom Institute, and they were met at Gladiator arena when he was one of the supreme admirals who needed to fight to prove that the Kingdom owns a true warrior.


Even she was lovely but nobody  knows how broken her life back then in her own country, not like him. Everybody knew how extreme and loyalty, he was to his job and assignment. Strict and zero tolerate on his enemy. They called him Crow Jiro, a name who symbolized his achievement of kill his own emotion and feelings, and done the task in no matter what to no regret.

She is a princess of her place, her beauty thick every heart of men, but no men could please her well. Since she was small, she was been dedicated her life to something she doesn't want to be. To please the injustice of King's Anger. She loves art, and art is an escape for her from her own misery.

So they were really met in a perfect time of glorify. Their friendship change the biggest part in their believing, which lead to a Smile of a Rose that grew in the concrete. Ever since that he always protects her in so many ways, even she was in an emotion disaster he was there. And now he was a surprise that he already owns a feeling and emotion. He started to worry as if it could low the stronghold of the Kingdom supreme army. He was taught once "Emotion Kills" and never gonna consume it in any emotion seasons.

Suddenly, he realizes he lost in the middle of the White. He already split up far away from the foot troops. He lost it. He keeps wondering until he was attacked by few pirates of Ebibadigedup. Sword was drawn and it's time for a dirty battle as he was attacked from behind and stab in a first counter. He lost his shield. Suddenly, he realized the pirate is one of the Ebibadigedup former leader Penan, who keeps marking his head as their own Arch Enemy. His body was slicing a couple of times, wounded and in a critical situation when the winter storm keeps storming harder. He could barely see in this all white environments, for more he never in an experience of winter battle. He lost his ability here.

He has already forgotten about the foot troops and his Majesty, with emotion of missing her. He fights for living now to ensure he was there when she was return later. However, he still out of tactics to win until he steps on Black. He looked at the Black with full of snow. It reminds him of the symbol he was attracted with. Now he realized that Ebibadigedup always equipped with unfinished metal job. It was filthy with black ore. To compare with Supreme Army battle suits, most of it a silver plate job. He flips the current situation by camouflage himself  in the winter, being part of the white while his eye keeps tailing Penan. With the strong hope to come back alive, he managed to win the battle and kill Penan in a very shadowing move. The different is now the shadow is all white. Even the winning blood was sheds, because of critical injuries he black out and cry..

"Your Majesty! Your Majesty, Crow Jiro eyes are opening now", yell one of the foot troops. He wakes up and asking what really happen to him. They said he was found unconscious in the middle of storm after a battle with Penan. "We did see the battle, but we couldn't know with who is Penan fight with. He keeps on fighting himself,  so we not draw in as we don't want to attract Penan to alert our existence to protect Your Majesty" said one of the foot troops.

"After we see Penan suddenly blood out and knockout,  Bear G ran up there to see what is really happened. All we saw is Penan dead body and your shield, sir". Bear G is a man who hired to lead the way in the heavy winter as he is more experience in a winter situation or what the soldier called Christmas Persona's. Bear G was shocked with that incident as he has never seen that kind of battle or notice any kind of living things that so invisible in the winter. That's why he drastically ran in after Penan was dropped facing the ground.

"But it was weird sir. You're full wounded but your shield was barely untouched at all, not even a tiny scratch on it, are you fight without a shield. It is so not you, sir". Notice one of the troops. "So how did you found me?" he asked.


"Because of you flipped the silver plate it makes us hard to know whether you were there or not, but we found this black thingy than we saw you near by. The back of silver plate braces that you flipped on is really making us blind to see you, and by the way. What is this black thingy?" asked the troops.

"Oh, that something that belong to someone important to me. Anyway  hence man, how is it Your Majesty condition" he started to realize his main objective in this White mission. "Are you feeling well my son?" ask from the Majesty. He shocked by that voice and stand up even he was barely standing. "Just rest on son, you just show me the best winter battle tactics. Where did you ever learn it?".

"........" he just answered a silence speak. Then he looked at the Black, "it is the Black, My Majesty. In one moment, I just realize that it cannot be two black in a white form, like the Yin Yang, it's only having one black in the white" he said.



"Huh? Yin Yang? That's so unbelievable, in short a timing you have a gut and an idea to consume yourself  in the white without  knowing it might kill you because of the top level of frozen degrees. You're really a strong man, that is so emotional between the black and white in Yin Yang, balance of a moment"" said Bear G.

" I'm the expert in the winter battlefield could never think of that in a serious draw while the battle is still on, and further more to think such a deadly tactic that might kill yourself,  it is very emotional, maybe the winter is really in love with you hahaha that's why you are still alive, what a great leader you got here hence man" said Bear G with a very touched laugh.


After Bear G mention the word emotion couple of times, he suddenly stands on his knee on the ground and "My Majesty, please forgive me for the selfishness action, I just realize this incidence is supposed not to be happen if I focus on my leading's. While the sword in my hand, I was told to myself  to fight not for you or the Kingdom, but to fight to stay alive, to ensure I came back in one piece, I'm so sorry and please forgive me." with a crying voice he apologized to his Majesty. "I have failed this mission".


"My son Crow Jiro, tell me what make you out of your focus. You're the best at this, and it's really made me out of understanding, explain to me. What is the failure part?" His Majesty asked.

"Emotion, My Majesty. I should always aware and know that emotion kills. I was carried away by something that not related with our mission, so I fail to prepare my best dedication to protect My Majesty the Heart of Kingdom. Even my shield was untouched. I threw it away while fighting, just the same what happen now. I throw your best shield to protect you." he said..


"YOU WERE WRONG MY SON!!" yell His Majesty. "I was chosen to be the Majesty not because of my dictatorship, war head or economics leadership, but I was chosen by the people in the Kingdom because of, I'm being able to be their heart. It is the emotion of our people, do you not believe in their emotion to choose me as the Heart of Kingdom?"

"This is your biggest failure of all, to kill your own emotion. What makes a living things alive? It is emotion my son. Even you teach your hence man about emotion kills but what is the best strength we have in all of odds? It is emotion. Don't make all the things is about yourself  achievement, even we always learn and taught that we need to do things for our own self, but if we are capable of doing it for someone else. We just gain a higher strength and ability to achieve it, even perfect we believe that we could make it and that's giving us the extra focus.." said the King.


"Listen this my son, this is what i do learn from my mother;

"Everyone needs time alone for a little soul searching at some point in their life. It's the right choice for now. It would be best if that child could forget the love he has for his mother, just as he forgot how to speak. However,.. even if someone loses the power of speech, they can live full lives if they have someone to love."

After a long conversation and a meaning full lecture, he takes his head up high and shed his tears "Thank you My Majesty, now I learn the strongest weapon of our Kingdom. It is the emotion in everyone heart. The strongest kingdom never promised a happy and harmony living, but our Kingdom, which believing in emotion did make us the best Kingdom in the region."

Now he is returned  to the kingdom. He notices she still didn't come back yet, but he received a letter from her. Content of the letter is;


"Hey dear, how are you? Hope all are okay. I missed you so much here, hope you feel the same way to. Hows Black? White here miss it to. I cant come back now but i will shortly be there again, just wait for me. Plus without black how could white balance her own emotion, like the Yin Yang. That is something i learn in the class. Hope to see you soon dear. Better be alive.. your dear Cheng"

After reading the letter, he got a smile on his face. He back to the library, look for the book of Yin Yang. He read over night and now he understands why she was not letting the black look for white.

The Yin Yang is not just about the balance of it, black in white and white in black. But the trust that needs to build. Why the black in white and black in the white is about trust of having each other. To be part of white doesn't mean we have to change from black to white, but to believe that we could live with white and being part of it, so due to black. And why it was symbolized in a circle form. It will always come back at once where it is the start, the heart and the emotion, we, being human. We could never kill our own emotion. It just maybe will take a long rotation before it is coming to the right time on the right rotation of life.

Now he knows, why he was marked as the black, and she was the white. He was blacked because of his seriousness of dealing things and make a thing complete in any circumstance, and white is the best position to calm the harm, to naturalize the little part in the black aggressiveness.

And for white, she needs black to playing the part of leading and responsible to ensure things wasn't so simple. Because human always lost in the simple way of living, lost of hope and faith. They will just be looking for an answer but not to create the answer itself.

So now when the black and white separate no matter how far, if we trust on each other, it always be there even a little dot.

Now to make a story more interesting with our own balance imagination, this is my favorite ending.. He is still waiting for her to come back no matter what. Why? Because the white need black and black need white, it just makes things more interesting. Just imagine if white just stay with white and black stay with black. Doesn't it be so boring to know just the best of our own self?

Try to walk to those roads he walked, u will understand the love of, he and she, the black and white.



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